end year 2013...

   So.. another year ended... this year has been hell... change of manager equivalent to the change of work system..... Today i realize sumthing.. im in the middle...
     People say it is not wise to pick sides when there is war... but it is worse to be stuck in the middle of it....
Since im not on either side, ppl tend to think I'M on their side.. Team A talks bad things and criticizing about teamB  openly when I'm there, So i hear everything they say.... and its the same when team B doing the same to TeamA... But if I move away they say I'm anti-social.... What the hell..  I know it happens at all workplace but it is so uncomfortable in between.. I make a decision to not take sides and to mingle with everyone but if this continues eventually i will became the traitor among everybody... Because teamA will be seeing me with TeamB  and teamB will be seeing me with teamA..
 I know this happens at every work place but its getting really hard to keep up...
  One day  someone will eventually burst and a fight will happen... It's like  ticking bomb ticking away.. TICK TOCK TICK TOCK....BBOOOOMMMM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Few days ago, i had a evaluation done by the manager... I din't agree with some things he said but what can i do,, with his attitude and all the pass discussion, Let's just say its a waste of breath talking to him.... DICTATOR!!!! He told me anything to complain or any problem..... but how to say that all my problems starts from YOU!!! How to complain all this stuff to him??? He has been working fro almost one year and yet the staff rarely see your face.. only those who could not face and solve their own problems will complain to him... Why the complaining this and that,,, All are adults, face it head on instead of TEACHER TEACHER!!. He bare see us working, he doesn't come out to help us which i do not know what he does hiding inside his office, doesn't even know the workflow well, are able to evaluate us.. BULLSHIT!! So basically he evaluate us with sources based from the people whines to him at every fucking single problem are also the people who could not solve their own problems.. WOW!!!! geram nia.....
   the more i think the more ki hong....!!!!Q ISH ISH!!!. BO AKAL...!!!!
 SO  sometimes i feel guilty for kutuking ppl... but sometimes i also fell this relieve of lepasing geram when it happens... that y is hard to be in between...
ALL this happen within 2 weeks time.... DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA......
 All grownups behaving like little kids.. so childish.... And they dare say youngsters are the problemed one these days,..,, Thats because we .learned from u....

END WITH PEACE!!! MERRY X'MAS!!!!

Boring at work...

Now its  the end of oct... November starts tomorrow..i woke up late this morning.. Forgeten that i had to do chemitry maint.. Such a fool.. But luckily still made it to dinish my qc before 8..
Still nth special happenning..
Last week went down to sunway wit ling .  Had such a great time... Spend my birthday wisely.... Plannning next year where to go.. Hehe... Bye for now...

Just another day..

After 4 months.. Herr goes another post.... Juast another at work in life.. Had a giod rest yesterday.. But maybe i should have make a productive day from the off day afte a long tume... But in anorher way.. Caught up with all wgm episodes and barefoot friend.. Non stop... Oh well..  At least i had a good rest n today  oncall.. Good luck... Hope today will be good..

another day another blog.. this time took 2 days off again... but there nth to do at al... woke up at 8am but been sloppy n lazy the entire day and now it's 10 pm. with no accomplishment for the day. I thought could get some rest afetr whole packed month of oncalls but I never thought it would be that boring to stay at home. Maybe I should go out tommorrow... Anyway I been thinking of opening a new blog for fan fiction. Well.. big fan of korean culture....Should I?
Workis ok i guess so far.. no arguements big sometimes disagreements do happen.. Generation gap i think..But it does not mean one person get to insult what the person is not familiar with... its music to some this age but you from another generation has no right to call them noise n rubbish.. right??? haih.. The new boss manager came.. we are now no longer under Mr.Tan. which i say is a great manager to the lab, who just got promoted to director. The new manager Mr.Loh is kinda..i dunnoo....
 He keeps making weird suggestion  and wanting impossible things.. i got a feeling that the lab is gonna change drastically  once old tauke leaves the lab...
well thats all for now.. tommorrow will be a new day.. still an off day for me.... then back to work on thursday.. not much to say today but at least it can get some things out of my head so i can sleep better tonight.
Well,, took the doctor's order to get a good night sleep... that all for today..
SUPER JUNIOR HWAITING!!!!!!

GOODNIGHT!!!!

Days off

Took two days off work.. Today last day.. Tomolo starts working again... Two days did nth but it felt like its not enuf.. Kinda like wasting 2 dys.. Should hav gone to pay my credit card bill... took out my yearbook... Grad year... Man it brings back lots memories... 7 years ago i graduated from cgl High school... yet everrything, every little memories n details are so clear still in my head... Wow... Time sure flies fast... Now at 24.. things have changed.. I have changed... For better at tbe same time for worse.. As in more stubborn... Hehe.. Well that it for now... Till next time..

end of 2012

all of a sudden i remenber i have a blog... came to check it out... the last blog was in 2010 when i was having my exams..... wow.. 2 years has pass..... now its the end of 2012... time sire fly fast... but it makes me think... what have i done in these 2 years.. what have i accomplished... i managed to get a job.. which is now going fine.. except for a few things......... now in the third year,.. been expected to go on first call... which is to stay overnight alone.. i guess i am ready... but i think its the laziness that stops me from going forward.... i dunno.. anyway lots of things happpened these couple of years.. but i think i would blog more often since i found it back......
well just to cjheck in.... like i said... my miserable but blessful life..
Peace out~~~~

exams!!

now its 3 months later. no updates maybe course there nth to update... after january assigments lab reports dissertation.. all work comes pouring in... then now exams. when will it ends.. i reli reli hate studying..... exams season.. stress for exams.. will i pass or will i fail... thats waht worries me.....i hav never stress like this forever in my life. firt time in my laife i actually study 24 hours straight without sleeping....could not sleep in peace.. if im stressing for exams, wht the hell am i doing updating my blog at 2 in the morning when the cellular patology paper starts in 7 hours???? simply cause i kenot study anymore... my brain has stop working... but i mus be able last for few more hours.. after tomolo's paper,, then then the last paper.... haematology!! haih....!! worries are never ending...
i reli reli ned to study now.. no no regrets laetr if i fail my exams.......... sleep after exams..................!!!!! good luck to me....

2010

this is just the beginning of the year.. but so much thing happened. but im glad i got frens n family to give me support and love to get me through the tough times although i'm still on the way... that is y this blog is called my miserable but blessful life. but i hav to think positive n try my best n to move foward.. there is no point thinking of the past n cry over it.. let bygones be bygones.... that is all i can say..... About the irritation.. at the end it did turned to hate... i lost respect for the person after all.. she does not deserve my respect when she dun even respect ppl... n so fake.....u are your true self when u are cunning n stabbing ppl's back. u shown it lots of times but we closed one eye cuz u are our fren.. but now u climbed over our head. THIS IS WENT IT ALL STOPS!! no more means no more.... u hurt our feelings too much for us stand it anymore.. we will not take it anymore.. we are now starting to answer u back questioning back every statement that u make that hurt our feeling.let's see how small can u be.... think before u say anything.if u don start noew n change... u are going to lose ur frens... since u onl i have us here, soon u gonna lose us also... all frustrations coming out.. i wanna say tis to the person face but its beter not to.. but a blog is a blog... this is my diary.. so i'm gonna write wht i want.. not follow along what ppl say n change opinion to mke myself sound like an angel hu is paranoid bout bieng clean hu uses 10min to wash a cup that has been used to drink onli WATER.....

CRAVINGS!!!

OMG!!! i been eating the entire day... wake up eat 5 bread then eat instant noodles... then finished the entire box of ritz crackers( not the mine ones), then eat cereal wt no taste so add nescafe... still no taste add.. add nutella... n now im drinking another cup of nescafe..... above all that ive been sitting in front of com since i waoke up this mroning.... alamak.. gemuk la macam itu..... but i still kent stop eating... after finish coffee now i wann eat dduk bokk gi... kinche chigae...BIBIMBAP!! OMG!!! I WOULD KILL TO EAT NOW~~ NANDOS!!! been thinking bout it since few days ago.. not my fav plce or food to eat but ...-_-" ... the place i reli wanna is the korean rest called kimchee in golders green. omg.. i love the place.. prices ar kinda above average by couple pounds... but the food ws worth it...all i can think of is food i wanna eat ... n i mean now!!! im still not ful.... keep eating nonstop... all stock finish... onli left 4 flavours of tea n coffee... gonna hav to go out tesco to buy.. but little more expensive but 1 min away....or cheaper n more choises but hav to walk all the way to asda bout 20 to 30 min away.......... but so far....n cold... plus its snowing..... n the bus fair went up.. haih... onli left 62 pens in my purse all 1 and 2p coins..... enuf lor to buy one loaf of bread 59p.. should i go tomolo?? asda or tesco??? pls be sunny!!! but no diff.. its sunny but its neg4...
HAIH......... i hate the cold.... winter faster over n let spring take over nw...
dunno y suddenly feel so wanna eat... n i got no more food left.... today alone i think i finish of bout 50% of waht i bought now food supply is 0%..
HELP!!!!! NOW IS THE BESTTIME TO EAT BAK KUT TEH!!!!

SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!

nobody is perfect in this world.... y the hell do u hav to correct each n everything single thing ppl say??? someone say sumthing understand fine.. y muz u correct every singlr thing even pronounciation.... esp when u interuPt someone talking to correct somebody............... GET THE FUCK OVER IT!!!! n hu are u to give love advices to omeone when u urself could not understand y ppl some love someone thier entire life n don believe in marriage..... n u never hav even a bf before...... u dn even know the feeeling of being in love or liking someone or in a relationship.......... hu the hell are u to give advices.?????? y do u complain about anything and everything...??? literally!!!!!! u complain from food to water to air.... ur even worse than mr.monk!!!!!! n we know u like super super clean............ but i could not stand u being so noisy aboutt us being not clean jus because i don bath for one hour minimum....FOOD!!! my god.... every nite complain too salty too no taste too spicy.... SHUT THE FUCK UP!!. but ask her to cook .... big excuse..... know how to call someone to learn if dunno but sendiri macan itu.... this is what a hipocrit is........... i got so annoyed by u.... jus don make annoying to hate... its up to u..... u onli hav to do one thing!!!!! SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!!!

SHOPPING..!!!!

Boxing day is the day to go chopping ppl... prices drop like hell... NEXT selling as low as 4pounds. ZARA dresses bout 20pds LA SENZA, HARRODS, RIVER ISLAND, CLARKS, JOHN LEWIS, GAP, BODY SHOP prices drop.... HEAVEN!!!! 5 days of shoppping spree.................. attach each n every store baju by baju.. miss one u miss a veop to ry good deal.. perfumes n makeup.. fcuk, dkny,versace, armani all half price of the discount price... makes is rund 20pounds... but the crowd was horrible.. going to oxford circus was terrible... but looking at this prices... IT WAS ALL SO WORTH IT....fisrt day went oxford circus.... hactic.. but grabbing n snatchinng things... it was fun..hehehe... second day went to harrods.. everthing so expensive.............. saw a stunning valentino dress......after discount is 1000pounds... go figure the real price.. but no harm wishing of owning one...... saw vera wang wedding dress........ so nice... so elegant....... HAIH!!!!!!!!!!!!! no nit to mention the price oso.... n hu the hell wanna use a 10000pds pen?? its 8000pnds after discoun.. YEAH RITE.....like that makes a big diff......siao eh..buat apa nak canggih canggih... buy 70 sen use rosak throw.. third day went back to return stuff or exchange things..... n more shopping.... but boght nth but body glove..... body butter for onli 5 pound..... i love the papaya, orange and the peach flavour.. then balik to normal time table..... SLEEP!!!!! wish malaysia hv this kind of sale...hahhahaha....

Bought christmas gifts for everyone.... funky 'so called' sunglasses. its the spririt of giving!!. love my frens here lotss.. but miss those back to malaysia.... amy yen yen...... sue sue lin lin.... fong fong theng theng........... miss u oh..... wait for me come back oh.. dun kah win lari wit eddick n jimmy oh.........

3 months!!

i arrive in london at 17 sept... today is 17th dec....i've been here for 3 months.... wow...... it felt so long yet it past so fast...but come to realizing it.. i din do much for the last 3 months... went parties n drinkign all those things... it does not feel like enjoying lives...... tru parties everyone is too drubk to even remeber hu u met at the party.. basiccaly its crap.. its jus anotehr excuse to get drunk n get laid.. u dun make real frens out of it.. places i've been to is not much.. central london, wing yip golders green edgware west hondon oxford circus picadally circus thorpe park.. i mean london is liek so big...... everthing u see is building... old old buildings..... dunno haunted pun tak tahu.. so gonna take the oppotunity thsi holiday to travel explore as many places as possible.... but the snow n the cold.... jus gonna hav to get over it.... its gonna be august soon.... time to go home.......!!!

snow snow!!

after all the chaos n stress of coursework... in 7 hours.. my misery is over...!!! uni is ending.. for the term that is. then X-MAS HOLIDAYS!!!!... it started to snow yesterday... it was cold n slippery everywhere.... tonite it snowed reli heavily... it means onli one thing!!!! SNOW FIGHT!!! went out side n stated throwin snowbalss at ppl... strangers n friends.... dun care... see someone??? jus throw...... got totally drenched... ice smashed, thrown, squeezed everywhre... from the hair to head to face even put ice into clothes... tried to put into kahjie's pants but failed... Ceh!!! Snowman!!! equiped wit the inportant parts of the body...*ahem ahem* had fun today.... a perfect ending to the term n year 2009... WHAT NEXT???? SHOPPING!!!!!

idiots!!!!

its 6 n the mornning n i can no longer sleep... all thanx to someone.. if u wan to hav a party in a place wit u have mates... at least u can do is keep ur guest down or play in the kitchen... not in front of my dorr the entire nite/ morning.... i could hear what everybody says loud n clear......not everybody so free like u all to hav party every nite ok???? jus so inconiderate..... n to a special ppl stading in front of my doo..NOOOo.... nobody wan to be ur mothers for u to fuck. stop scolding n screaming mother fuckers the entire nite. . or can i say entire morning.....that is o not cool and its insulting even to ur own mother....oh god...
too much anger to even type...... ish..... how to standthis everynite... wekends at least maybe i let it slide... but its freaking thursday morning... u don hav clas inthe morning but someone else has u know...... ish!!!! so damn pissed off.......

stress again..this time with pressure

when will this end... at last i finsh n got over with 2 3 assignment out of all tot could at least realaxed a bit..... but NOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 5 more came my direction..... lagi more work.... haih....what's up wit ll these ppl?? don't they hav a life to live instead of marking our work?? ish!!!! haih..!!!!!could not even hav a little fun without having the guilt of not doing work instead of playing... n now missing homw missing my frens.... wonder do anybody miss me??? n now im its 115 in a early wednesday mornin updatin this while work is suspended at the moment... brain cells is too tired.... n internet is not fast enuf to load my drama... T_T
N now im feeling hungry.......nth but coffee n maggi mee and pringle which i jus finish half of it 30 mins ago... i wan hokkien mee.... koay teow thng.... BAK KUT TEH!!!! *nyam nyam*

stress

works keep piling up...... datelines tomolo.. dissertation title due on monday... hav to find bout 50 articles bout accupunture.. lab report due in 9 hours....quiz dateline on sunday... all dates line nearing.... what was i beign doing for the last 3 weeks??? so much stress.... so much pressure..... did i regret taking this course..?? maybe.. but the more i regret is i din start from the first year.... much to do.. so little time..
i must change if i wanna pass.. there is no time to even enjoy london.... gotta give myself some encouragement... aja aja Fighting!!! I CAN DO IT!!!! but now i wanna go watch drama now... kin cheong time...